Keeper

Soooo much has changed in these past months.
I started senior year of high school!
Its been kinda rough since I missed the first two weeks of school since I was in mexico.
But I wouldn't go back and change a thing.
I won Homecoming queen! just like jay did. I guess it just comes along through the generations.
Well, theres also this boy.
Im not gonna say his name. or anything.
im just gonna say what I feel.
Hes sweet, charming, handsome, respectful, grateful, funny, awkward, and last but not least, hes become a bit of my happiness.
I know weird to say since I have only liked him for about a month, but weve been talking since the summer and everything.
He was so cute and just would always text me, and me being me, wouldn't text back. Which is real bad of me, I know.
But what makes this better, is that it was so unexpected. it just happened.
No were not dating or anything.
But I have feelings for him.
Hes someone I wouldn't like to lose.
He opened up to me, in such ways I really couldn't imagine anyone doing that to.
No one opens up, to things in such a way, to someone they wouldn't trust.
Right?
When he opened up, it made me feel a bit closer to him.
Like I felt like I knew him a bit better.
I understood him.
We just happened to have gone on two dates this past weekend.
We killed two birds with one stone.
I didn't want a relationship my senior year, but after meeting with him, and talking with him, and just being around him, I sure wouldn't mind.
All this is coming from a girl who has never had true feelings for a guy.
Well at least never like this.
I get butterflies when I see him, I really want him to hold my hand, and I just get all giddy around him.
Uhhh that has to mean something right?
I told him that I surround myself with the people and things that make me happy, and he happened to be one of them.
I don't know how or why it came out, but it did. and im so happy it did.
He told me I made him happier, and he felt lighter since hes been around me.
K doesn't your heart just melt when you read that? because mine did while I wrote it.
Oh, he was also my homecoming date. And let me say. He looked good, and he was such a gentleman the whole night. yep.
The slow dances. Oh don't even. So cute.
Well.. I don't know if you can tell. But this one is a keeper.

gleam

Your smile continues to gleam.
The biggest and brightest ive ever seen.
You left this earth far to soon.
But for some reason every one knew.
You had yo go you needed the peace. Youd always question how great it would be to live in a world much different than the one that we see.
Your as calm as the deep gentle sea.
Its our turn now to see we need to let you be.
God chose your path
He determined your fate
Even though your gone.
You never left my side.
Youre living deep, deep down inside.
My heart aches for something is missing. Your life was set for something so great.
Youre watching over us.
So proud we should make you, we must.
You are guiding us through life. Oh my what a sight.
I'd like to share this with you.
Everything i see, you see as though you knew.
This isnt goodbye.
We will cry, dont be mad its part of life.
Your an angel now.
I hope that you see,
All the great things youve brought outta me.
You must now rest in peace.
Your memory will continue to gleam.
See you in heaven.
See you in peace.

Miss you.