Missing you.

I MISS you.

 

 

 

 

Its still not real.

I loveee youuu sistaaaaaaaaaaa.

 

 



Happy.

I'm broken.

I'm happy.

I'm exhausted.

I'm a dreamer.

I'm a believer.

I'm hurt.

I'm weak.

I'm imperfect.

I'm a fighter.

I'm loving.

I'm angry.

I'm frustrated.

I'm sad.
I'm respectful.

I'm annoyed.

I'm caring.

I'm heartfelt.

I'm in pain.

I'm a movie lover.

I'm strong.

I'm in shock.

I'm awkward.

I fall easily.
I love reading books.
I don't understand technology much.
I love being outdoors.
I have liked someone for so many years, its unreal.
I want to be an aerospace engineer. (or any type of engineer)
I push myself until I cant any longer.
I hate my job.
I hate getting yelled at.

I cant express my feelings.

I'm fighting for what I believe in.

I have a mind that wont stop showing me things I don't want to see.

I replay the worst moments, just to help me see what I can improve.

I've been to hell and back, but that's my plan.

I'm blessed to have my best friend, who is now an angel, always with me.

I still cant believe what actually happened.

I hold back my tears.

I cant hold back my rudeness at times. (sorry)

I've changed.

I broke the news to my parents.

I broke their hearts.

I could of stopped my sister.

I didn't.

I know that was gods plan. It happened because it was supposed to.

I have a never ending love for my family.

I never knew what pain actually was, until now.

I am Happy.

I've experienced things most wouldn't, yet I am happy.

I feel happy, I can see happiness in me.

I still have all this pain and hurt in me, but happiness is what I feel the most.

I have my low points, but I can assure myself I will be happy.

I have hope.

I wont give up.

I will be 100% there one day.

I'm not quite there, but I promise.

I will be.

This is me.

 

 

 

 

 

I hate cats, and I honestly don't like how this cat looks, but it cracks me up every single time I look at it.

Praise the lord for ugly cats.

Lezbehonest.

Thanks to my main hoe Karla I'm doing this shiiiii.
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1. Ma main hoes are karla and becca.

2. My biggest fear is becca. Psych im probably hers.

3. I hate dressing up, or doing my hair and make up. Hence the lion hair guys.

4.I have a valentine this year... Thats right. Its the one and only Karla.

5. I don't share my emotions, i keep them to myself.. Its easier that way.

6. When i grow up i want to be an aerospace engineer, or a physical trainer. (professional under basket water weaver if those don't work out)

7. Im not comfortable around tons of girls (especially karla when she lifts her shirt)

8. Music is what helps me get through the day.

9. I always wanted to be skins not shirts. When i was 4 i hated that boys could run around with out shirts but girls had to keep them on, so i threatened my mom to run around with out one.

10. Ive never been in a good relationship. Yep, that means you man.

11.I hate feet. and other peoples bathrooms. Ew , no blaaaahhhhhahahahahha]

12. I'm the greatest singer. Adele would be ashamed.

13. Jay is my motivation.

14.I hate cats, yep i have no soul. But neither do they. Those little gross creatures.

15. I have a random passion for baseball.. Thank you jesus for those baseball pants.

16. Beyonce is ma main girl crush..

17. Tacos are my favorite thing to eat. I can eat like twenty of those.. Mexicans..

18. I've always wanted to live out in the mountains. Just me and my knife. jk, just really wanted to live out there for atleast a week or so.

19. I wont sugar coat things, if i dont like you or what your doing , i will tell you.

20. I dont like how after jay died, tons of people started talking to me just because they felt bad.

21. I rock at pda. Public display of awsomeness.

22. I have made plenty of milkshakes and no boys have ever showed up at my yard.

23. I like big butts and i cannot lie.

24. I'm shy in the beginning, but after a while i open up.

25. Yeah its 25, but im keeping this going. I'm on a roll.

26. I promise im not mean, im just really awkward.

27. If i could live in shorts and t-shirts i really would.

28. I faint a lot, if i faint one of these days, its normal. Just elevate my legs.

29. I'm not like most the girls you will meet. I'm extremely different. I find it hard to fit in.

30. This is the biggest shocker in the world guys.. I'm MEXICAN. Look past the white skin, dark hair and kind of colored eyes, you will see the biggest beaner there is. Promise.

Shout out to ma bih karla for helpin a sista out! Also a big fat eff you for putting me in this mess.
 t(-_-)t


Andd... sorry guys im not tagging anyone.

now enjoy this lovely picture.

Whoop there it is.

2012.

I honestly couldn't be happier that it is over.

It wasn't a bad year, but it wasn't a good one either.

There's been better.

The first 4 1/2 months of it were great.

Dance performances in January, Yogurtland every single day with the sisters

to just going out and having fun with friends or sisters!

My biggest treasure, the cutest little thing i have ever laid eyes on was born on January 27! 

That was defiantly the brightest thing of the whole year.

After April, well. Everything just went kinda down hill. 

Momma had to go to Mexico because my grandma got sick.

I had to go to summer school the first two weeks of summer. (i hate you drivers ed)

So i never did get the chance to go with jay to seven peaks!

After that, i just chilled.

Didnt really go out much. 

Just stayed home.. And you know.. Chilled.

I also was in and out of appointments with doctors.

Got a heart monitor on June 25. 

Poppa left to Mexico on June 26.

He left me and jay here while he went to pick my mom and brother up!

It was exciting. 

After almost 2 months of not seeing them, they were finally coming home!

They got here on July 6th.

Well as everyone knows. She passed away on July 8.

Woooorrst thing that has ever happened to my family.

Thats why i honestly didnt like 2012.

But hey, it did leave behind some great memories.

Not gonna complain about that. 

Everything in July was so weird.. 

We did go up to Idaho the last weekend though!

Seeing a bunch of drunk people dancing around, and seeing my whole family together.

It was so great.

I left to Californiaaaaa on august something.. I dont remember.

But it was great! Best trip.

My amaaaazing cousins were there with me everyday, and made it the best trip !

From beaches, to hollywood to universal studios.

Couldnt of asked for anything more.

Then school came along.. 

School sucks.

Lets leave it at that.

But there was some great things about it.

From all the friends you meet, to all the things you do.

I did go to Homecoming and sadies!

Greatest. They were the best.

Thanks to the amazing dates i had!
 David and Aaron!

Also to the very best friend i have had through it all. Beccaaaaaa.

The one the only burnt bean.

I couldnt have asked for a better best friend through this whole year.

It hasnt been very easy. 

But it is always nice having a good friend around.

Also to the good friends i made! Like kenna.. And jess.

Man, craziest girls, but also the greatest.

I got a job in November.. so this year, i also grew up.

Boo.
Christmas was spent well.
Welcoming the new year without my parents was strange though!

 I'm done writing. Enjoy my 2012 pics erryone. (Theres alot. sorry guysssss)

 Heeelloooo 2013.
Spent the very first day watching Pitch perfect..
Guys. I think i might like this year.
Might, though. dont get too excited.

I'm not gonna say "new year new me" because lets face it guys.. 

You stay the same. 

No changing.. 

Just your normal old self. 

Welp. Yep.
That was my year.
p.s. "I ate my twin in the womb."